I love it when I can feel the presence of God working in such a great way that it stops me in my day by day activities and draws me to my knees in praise! Such has been the case as of late. Plagued with a worry that kept me from sleep and brought to me a anxiety that I rarely have was the nagging feeling that something was not right with my Haitian daughter, Rebecca. I found myself constantly on my knees or bowing my head among the hustle of life and at night sleep was so often interrupted that I was beginning to worry that I might have some sort of a health issue involving not being able to sleep.
As we parent our children, communication is the tool that we most use to keep our family on the road. It has been a challenge as we try to parent over 2000 miles away, through a every other week skype call, occasional phone call, and a every three month visit for a week at a time our two Haitian daughters. Both of them are teenagers now and the need has arose immensely!
I would awake at night and not be able to sleep ever since our last skype call. Something was not right with Rebecca during the communication and no matter how hard we would try she would not open up. Rebe has had much sadness in her life by losing both parents and then going through the Earthquake as well as being pushed into the voodoo life by a relative. She has a somewhat rebellious spirit and it is this that I most worry about. The orphanage she is at must instill strong discipline so that the children when they come home to their adoptive families will have been taught obedience. If a child can not abide by the rules at the orphanage and continues to transgress they will sometimes need to be put out temporarily or permanently. With Rebe's spirit this was what was worrying me!
And by and large this was what was the case! A email from Chris who runs the orphanage told of a disobedient act from Rebecca that caused her and another young women to have to return to the streets and any family that they might have! According to Chris after the before mentioned skype call...Rebecca was sent to live for a week with a aunt. The plaguing unrest and urgency to pray was indeed a call from the Lord to be on my knees the entire two weeks without us knowing anything at all of the situation. This then resulted, once I had found out the WHY, in a just as urgent need to fall to my KNEEs, once more in repentance for my lack of faith that He would take care of whatever the case was and in awe of the way that Christ is constantly working and prodding us to prayer and trust in Him, even when we do no know the WHY! My prayer is that the next time I am called to this sort of urgent petition that I will not worry the entire time, but instead trust and believe that whatever the situation...It is being dealt with by our Wonderful Savior who Knows ALL THINGS at ALL TIMES and ALL that I need to do is Kneel!
"In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning
I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation."(Psalm 5:3)
